Day 88

There are two main steps you have to do to lose weight. 1)Exorcise. We all know this one. Cardio, cardio, cardio! In fact, most people will spend hours a day exorcising to lose weight. They may start to look better, but they are not losing weight. Why? Because they are forgetting the most important step. Step 2 - Eating. Yes, in order to lose weight you have to eat. But not just anything. You have to eat healthy, and even then you have to be pretty picky. You can't go out and buy Whole Wheat 7 Grain Bread because its the healthiest bread out there (not really, just picked it out of the blue) and then eat the whole thing in one sitting. No, you have to eat healthy and eat small. Then you have to eat 5 times a day... so then you are thinking, great! I can at a sandwich at least 4 times today and be fine...wrong. Now you have to figure out a way to get in 8 servings of fruit and vegetables. So, now you have to make sure that you are eating a fruit or veggie at each meal. Two if you can! Not too many carbs or fat. Lots of protein but keep your calories under 1500. Oh!! and dont forget the water!!!

Ok, so some of you may find this extremely easy to do...but I am struggling. I have the exorcise thing down to a science. I work a different muscle out everyday. I have built my stamina up to the point where I can wogg 3 miles every day... but I cant get my body to be happy with healthy foods. I have this terrible mind game going on..

"I can eat this...I'll just do a little more cardio tomorrow." or "Hey, I ran 3 miles this morning, I can eat the extra calories today."

We all know this is self destruction. I am going in a vicious circle. I work out to make up for the calories I ate the day before, and I eat because I worked out this morning. AAAAaaaccccckkkkkkkk.

Today I am feeling better health wise... physically I feel beat up. I have been eating too much and I feel my body responding to it. I have no energy...

I am mad... mad at myself for doing this. So this morning I am kicking myself and I will be kicking myself all day. I wogged 3 miles this morning, worked my chest and back muscles and did an abs video workout. I have written down everything I will eat today on SparkPeople and have my calories set.. I WILL NOT eat anything that is not already written down. I will drink my daily 12-15 glasses of water. I will drink tea if I have the urge to cheat. I will do this from now on... I AM GOING TO SEE 189 ON CHRISTMAS MORNING