Monday, June 30, 2008
Now that I have lived the good life. Eating great, working out, having tons of energy and no depression.... I don't ever want to stop! Now, I may have to have that occasional fall back, just to remind myself.. but I will never return to that life again.
My weight this morning was 196. Yes, a gain... but no wonder! I haven't had water in two days (my wedding ring is tight) and I haven't worked out since Thursdays run.
I have to have goals. I feel stagnant if I don't have one to move towards.. so here they are:
1st goal: JULY 11 = 190 lbs
2nd goal: AUGUST 1 = 180 lbs
3rd goal: SEPTEMBER 1 = 170 lbs
4th goal: OCTOBER 1 = 160 lbs
This will give me a month to lose 10 lbs... do-able? I think it is! Why did I stop in October? Because on Oct. 4th we are on the train to Disneyland.... and, unlike last year, I want to look great! No more squeezing into my jeans... and no more hiding behind a shirt at the pool!
I have 3 full months that I have to focus. No cheating on the weekends.. no missing workouts... no sad excuses. I know I've said this (to you and myself) a million times, but this time I want to prove that I can get serious, buckle down and do it!
2 mile run
Chest and Back, Abs
I need to replenish my body with water.... lots of water!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Friday, June 27, 2008
Anyway, this weekend is Baby's birthday party with friends and family. I have a couple of things to get done tonight.. but otherwise it will be a stress free gathering with lots of food and fun.
This week HAS been bad in one way... my food. I have eaten more crap then normal. Cupcakes....yes, I indulged head first into the icing, batter and whatever else was sitting on the counter! Macaroni and Cheese... this is something I don't usually have a problem NOT eating because it reminds me of my old grade school and makes my stomach grumble in an unnatural way... but I ate it anyway. Bread...lots of bread. Ugh...
Yesterday I finally saw the light. I know that my problem with food is in my head. For some reason I have a switch that turns on the 'I'm Hungry' sign in my belly permanently. This switch is sometimes, to easily, turned on. Last night I finally turned it back off and hung a 'DO NOT TOUCH' sign on it.
I need to focus on the food I CAN eat... instead of dreaming about the food I CAN'T eat. Really, I don't crave bread unless I'm thinking about not being able to eat it. It's the ol' you want what you cant have thing. So.. focus on veggies, fish, salads, protein shakes and fruit. FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS.
Last night I ran 2 miles.. and then went to my Tang Soo Do class. Yes, I thought I was crazy too.. but I needed to do it. Once I got to class I was a little worried.. we sparred for an hour. Four 15 minute fights. YIKES! I was amazed at what I did. I was sweating... I was feeling the pain... but I wasn't out of breath and I was able to keep fighting even though my legs were yelling STOP!!!! My endurance has never been that good. I think running is doing the trick!
So, I took a few good hits. One guy is fighting next weekend at a cage fight event in the next town over. Master A thought it would be a great idea for him to fight me.. I do have the best kicks in class! ... and get him used to taking a few hits now and then. I got him a few time and he countered with a few good punches to my face (I'm not used to using hands in sparring) and one good kick to my left leg that caused my left side to go numb. That pissed me off and I had to counter with a spinning round kick to his head.... I LOVE THIS!!!
Today I am sore.. but its a good thing. It is reminding me why I don't want to eat like crap ever again. I want to train my body.. I want to be in the best shape I can.. I want to kick butt next time I fight that guy!! LOL
Today's plan... I'm not sure. I might run, I might do Yoga...
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I have been blogging for two years now. At first it was all about journaling for me. Writing down what I was feeling and why I thought I had gained so much weight. I blog today for the same reason, but also because I have found my niche in a community of friends that I cherish. I no longer blog for myself, but for the women (and the occasional man) who are grasping for help. We have all experienced life in its many colors, and we have all shared our stories with each other.
Today I am asking that we put our lives, our hearts and our stories into creating a single object. A quilt that will forever bind us as sisters, brothers and friends.
Here is what I am asking of all of you...
On a square of 12" X 12" cloth... get creative. Make that square a reflection of who you or your blog have become over the years. It doesn't have to be about weight loss... that is only a glimmer of what is inside all of us. Have you become a stronger woman? Have you taken a journey that you would have never taken before? ... think... imagine... create.
If you are interested in becoming part of this quilt... get started! Email me and let me know that you are working on it. You have until the end of October to get it done. If you don't know how to quilt, or don't have the time to quilt then just make the top and I will finish the quilting for you.
Make sure that your name... or your blogs name... is visible somewhere on that square!
Once I have recieved all the squares I will join them into one quilt.
Share this with every blogger you know. Lets see how big our family is!!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Of course it will be smaller... about an inch in diameter. I am going to try and get it done this weekend... YAY!!
Monday, June 23, 2008
The one big change that I see is that I am much more active on the weekends then I used to be. Sure, I have a hamburger one day and an ice cream the next...but I also spent 4 hours on the golf course, cleaned the bathroom, cleaned my car, cleaned the chicken coop and did some gardening all in the same two days. I remember never leaving the couch on the weekends... and eating ALL DAY LONG.
So I may not be losing weight as fast as I want to... but I think I have found a pace that I am happy with. I can focus on my body all week....and then focus on having fun all weekend. That seems like the perfect mix!
So, it's Monday morning and its time to get back into gear. I have a 2 mile run planned for this morning... and then Yoga tonight.
On a side note...I am getting another tattoo but I need help finding it. Does anyone know how to write in Korean?? I want to tattoo the words "tiger lily" on the back of my neck in korean......
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I am taking a rest day today. Cleaning the house is on the to-do list....
Friday, June 20, 2008
" I've decided to put my life's work into one must-have food bible. It's a book you can dip in and out of or read cover to cover. You can search for specific foods or ailments, or learn just how foods affect your well being, from head to toe, birth to old age. Whether you want to learn what to eat to help protect you from winter colds, sail through the menopause or banish your IBS, my book provides the answers at your fingertips. Think of me as your personal food oracle. No need to struggle alone!"
Thursday, June 19, 2008
This picture is of me after my run the other day.... I am adding it because MY ARMS HAVE NEVER LOOKED THAT GOOD!!!!!
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Yesterday the girls were playing with their Barbies when Baby's Barbie gashed Angel in the eye. She has a little scratch on the white of the eye... the rest is extremely red. I'm not sure if I should take her to the doctor or see if it heals by itself... anyone?? I looked it up on Webmd and it said that most scratches to the eye will heal in 1-2 days on there own... her pupil is reacting normal, so I don't think there is any serious bleeding or infection. She looks like she was hit by Mohamid Ali.
My workouts rocked yesterday. I ran 1.75 miles and did a full hour of chest and back. I am feeling it in every muscle today... I was going to do Yoga today.. but I have my Tang Soo Do class tonight and I think that will be plenty!
Food is on course, except for a bite or three of ice cream yesterday. No bread... We did have brown rice with dinner, but that is allowed!!
Have a great day!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Hubby also got 'The Transporter' movies from the girls. Jason Statham is now my favorite actor...YUMMO!!!!
This morning my hamstrings were still extremely sore...but I still did my morning run. After a good stretch they are now feeling much better. I completed my Week 2 Day 1 of C25K.... running 1.75 miles. I am trying not to focus on my time because I know I am slow and I know it will frustrate me and make me quit.... So I am focusing on sweating. Yep... all I want at the end of my run is to be soaked to the bone with sweat. :)
Friday, June 13, 2008
Enough with the stories of the past... lets talk the future here.
My workouts have been awesome. I finished Week 1 of C25K this morning and am feeling strong. My knees are feeling the strain again. Its not pain that I feel, but water. I seem to have water forming right above my knee caps the day after I run. Its a very strange feeling...but it goes away in a day. I'm not sure what I can do about it.. if anything. Any of you avid runners have any pointers??
I am eating too much bread. Evil, evil bread. I'm sure I would be 20 lbs lighter right now if it weren't for my terrible cravings for bread. What makes it harder is that I have to have it in the house. The girls and Hubby love their sandwiches. Otherwise I would just stop buying it so the temptation would not be there. Of course, that is no way to strengthen my will power... so, I will just have to slap my hand whenever it reaches for the bread box.
I have found a delicious post workout recovery drink... Mix 1
15 grams of whey protein
23 vitamins and minerals
3 servings of fruit/veggies
antioxidants = to 4 cups of green tea
free of lactose, gluten, soy and caffeine
They taste delicious and have a bunch of flavors like tangerine, mango and berry. I bought mine at the local natural food store.
The girls and I are off to get professional pictures done....well, as professional as you can get at Walmart! LOL. We should be doing family pics, but getting Hubby in front of a camera is like pulling teeth on a mad rhino. So, I have given up the fight and decided that the picture will be all girls. It is also time to do Baby's 3rd birthday pics....
Run = week 1, day 3 of C25K
Legs and Back
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
7 years ago...(OMG I cant believe it was that long ago).. I joined the Army. Well, I tried anyway. I weighed 196 lbs back then. When my recruiter weighed me he said I have to lose 21 lbs to qualify. So I started going to the gym and walking on the treadmill, bicycling, weight lifting... on my own for 6 weeks. I didn't lose a single pound. The recruiter decided to take it into his own hands. At 5 a.m. every morning he would pick me up, drive to the local park and make me run with him. Not just 1 mile... not even just 2... but 3, sometimes 4, miles!! I was not a good runner and he would get impatient with me... but after two weeks you could see a huge change in me. For one thing, I could keep up with him running for at least the first mile!!... the other change was kind of a funny one for me to notice... but my thighs quit rubbing together. I remember waking up one morning and walking to the kitchen and realized that there was air down there!! LOL ... So a month of that and my recruiter was positive that I had lost the weight and was ready to go.
He weighed me at his office... 191....yeah... only 5 lbs. I almost started to cry but the recruiter said it must be all muscle and that he was sending me to MEPS anyway. I don't remember what MEPS stands for, but it is where they do all the medical testing and paperwork to get you shipped off in the service.
The next day I was in the city standing in front of a huge building down town. I had my bag packed and I had said goodbye to my family. I was excited and scared to death. They had all the girls together for testing. I passed it all....until we got to the last station. The nurse weighed me...frowned...looked at me and asked me to step aside. She called over a couple of other nurses and they started to attack me with measuring tapes. According to my measurements I was a measly 1/2 a pound heavy...(I guess this was their way of figuring body fat)......now, there were two choices. One was to go home and come back the next week, the other choice was to have the medical director sign a waiver that sent me to boot camp anyway. I opted for the waiver.... For hours I sat in the waiting room. Finally, my recruiter showed up and said that the medical director had been called out and that they decided to have me come back the next week.
The drive home was 4 hours long... and the entire way home I could not believe that a measly 1/2 pound had kept me from shipping out. I started to think that this may have been a sign... I mean, what else could it have been?? A half pound , the medical director being 'called away'... So, I decided God had something else in store for me and I told my recruiter I would not be returning. The next week the US went to war with Iraq....
My point to this story is ..... at 191 lbs I had body fat equal to someone at 175.5 pounds.... I am hoping that that is what is going on right now! I am still aiming for 175 pounds on the scale.. but as soon as my thighs quit touching I know I will be on my way!!
(In case you are wondering, there was a reason God did not send me away.... but that story is for another day)
Shoulders & Arms
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I then did my Chest and Back weight workout. Push-ups and Chin-ups galore. I was a little bit weaker then I have been... not finishing some of the push-ups... but I think it was from not eating enough during the day. Not on purpose. I had a banana for breakfast and then didn't get to eat anything until 2:30... so I think my body was lacking a lot of energy. For those of you who are worried about my food... I do eat at least 1500 calories a day, and on big workout days like today I try to eat closer to 1800. As long as I stay under 2300 then I am losing!
Tang Soo Do
As much as I really want to run again today, I already have too much on my plate as it is. Plyo is an hour of jumping. Athletes do this workout to make them faster. I am just doing it because it burns A LOT of calories.
I will run again tomorrow.
My motivation is at its ultimate high. I am feeling the changes in my body. My arms are MUCH smaller then they were last summer... and I am just all around healthier. I want to keep feeling these changes... and I want to start seeing results again... so no more slacking. Its time to suck it up and get going... 40 more lbs to lose... that's it!!
Monday, June 09, 2008
Friday, June 06, 2008
"I was feeling ill for about 2 1/2 weeks. My mom [who has type 2 diabetes] tested my blood sugar and it was high. This all happened on a Sunday, so we went to the emergency room, where they tested my blood sugar at 870 mg/dl."
Elliott spent several years on multiple daily injections and experienced a number of hypoglucemic seizures. It wasn't until he was 21 years old, when he met a co-worker who was wearing an insulin pump, that he started thinking about pump therapy.
"He showed me his pump and how it worked and all that." He made an appointment with his co-worker's endocrinologist and worked hard to lower his A1C in preparation for the pump. About four months later, he was hooked up and pumping.As diabetics often do, we touched upon "a cure."
"I want a cure. Of course I want a cure. And I think we're getting close. I'm happy to be able to use my position and my voice to be involved in these great programs and charities. It would be a sin for me not to do anything [to raise awareness]."
By entering the competition, participants have had a direct impact on the lives of children with diabetes around the world.
In honor of the participants from the United States, Lilly made a $50,000 donation to ADA for scholarships for low-income children to attend ADA diabetes camps. For each entry into the global contest, Lilly is donating money to IDF's Life for a Child Program, which provides life-saving diabetes supplies to more than 1,000 children in 17 developing countries.
"We're humbled by the response to the campaign and the depth of personal experiences communicated in the stories and expressions received," said Stewart Perry, Chair of the Board, American Diabetes Association. "We hope these creative expressions will illuminate the many commonalities of a complicated disease, reinforce a community of support and inspire people to realize that they have a lot to contribute in the fight against diabetes."
U.S. Grand Prize winners will have their submissions entered into the global competition. Winners of the global contest will be announced this fall.
THE US GRAND PRIZE WINNERS:
-- Adult with Diabetes - Betsy Ray, Colorado
After managing diabetes for 43 years, Ray is working on a master's degree in psychology to serve as a resource to newly-diagnosed children with diabetes. Her motivation was born out of her desire to help others see diabetes in a new light, beyond the often negative constructs of the disease. Ray entered an essay called "The Journey." "As I reflect upon challenges I have faced as a result of diabetes ... I must also acknowledge the rewards," she wrote. "Diabetes has grown my spirit in a way that no normal life ever could ... It is so far beyond what I was told my life would be that I can only respond to the people I meet by telling them 'Anything is possible. You are on a journey. How you define it is up to you.'"
-- Child with Diabetes - Erin Tetreault, IdahoTetreault, 17, was diagnosed with diabetes at age 9. Inspired by her experiences at diabetes summer camp -- where she first learned about the Inspired by Diabetes campaign -- Tetreault hopes that more young people with diabetes can benefit from the emotional and educational support that these specialty camps provide. Her painting, "Self-Acceptance," depicts a young woman wearing an insulin pump. "Four years ago I would have been too self-conscious to paint my bare stomach with my pump proudly displayed," she wrote in her accompanying narrative. But because of diabetes camp, "I've learned to be myself and not worry if I'm different or not accepted."
--Health Care Professional - Theresa Garnero, California
Despite not having diabetes herself, Garnero is no stranger to this condition. Garnero draws diabetes-focused cartoons for various medical publications and also serves as a clinical nurse manager at a major medical center in California. She believes humor is a necessary component when talking about diabetes, saying, "If you laugh, you learn." In addition, Garnero will publish a book in 2008 in conjunction with the ADA that portrays the daily challenges and achievements possible following a diagnosis.
-- Family Member or Friend - Teresa Ollila, Colorado
Ollila is a mother of two and an avid photographer. Inspired by her son's diabetes diagnosis at age 3, she took an interest in capturing the complexity of living with diabetes by photographing others with the condition in her community. Ollila's collection of photographs, titled "Living with Diabetes," reveals the emotional impact of diabetes on people's lives. "I'm photographing how diabetes affects relationships and the feelings it provokes to care for others," Ollila wrote in her narrative.(read more)
Thursday, June 05, 2008
I went through my cupboards this morning. Yes, the magic pill has to be in there somewhere. What I found was a collection of half empty bottles. Half Empty. Why would I stop half way? Why would I bother doing it for so long and then quit. Had I finished the bottle maybe I would have seen better results..... ahhhhhhhh.... now I see the light. I am half way right now and ready to add the next bottle to my collection. (no, not literally... I have been clean and off diet pills for years now) I am suffering from yet another case of self sabotage. I need to dig deep and finish this. All I want to lose at this point is 40 lbs..... yes, just 40 lbs...... so lets get it done so we can stop this crazy roller coaster of emotions and feel the warmth of success!
Shoulders & Arms
FOOD AND WATER
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I got home and was making hot dogs for lunch.. hey, it was 1:30 and we were all starving. (the reason why you should eat something every 3 hours!) My mom called me and we talked about her new boyfriend. Things are getting serious and she was a little nervous about how I was going to feel about that. She said she would never get married again...but that they might move in together....(a little background... my dad passed away 6 years ago and my mom hasn't dated since) I told her life was short and that she deserved to be happy. I know he is good to her because they have a lot of fun together. Two nights a week they go square dancing....a couple of nights a week they have dinner together... and most weekends he is over at her house spending the day with her. He is a very polite man... and has a great sense of humor. I think it would be blessing for my mom to have this man in her life.
Having said that, I cried like a baby when I got off the phone. Not because I was upset at anything she has said or done... just because I miss my dad.. and I wish he was still here. I try to do and say what he would. He made me promise him before he died that I would stick around here and take care of my mom. I know that he would want her to be happy... I know that he would want me to support her 100%...
(Mom... if you are reading this I want you to know something. As long as you are happy, I will always be happy. Life is too short to worry about what other people think. Daddy will always be in our hearts... but there is always room for one more! )
Align builds and maintains a natural defense against occasional constipation,
diarrhea, urgency, gas and bloating.
Is anyone interested trying it? I have enough to give 3 people two weeks worth of samples.... or if only one person is interested I will send you all 6 weeks worth!
SIX FLAGS!!! .... I have 8 buy one get one free tickets and one free adult admission to Six Flags Magic Mountain. They expire December 31, 2008!
DALE AND THOMAS POPCORN!!!!!.... A $20 gift card for their online store!!
Interested??? Leave me a comment with your email address.. and what you want (and how many).. and I will contact you soon!!! FIRST COME FIRST SERVE...
I was also contacted by a European media company yesterday. They are sending me a free copy of Jillian McKeiths new book! I am super excited. I love her no-nonsense way! Look for a book review soon!!!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
L: tuna salad
S: carrot juice
D: not sure yet....
I did my chest and back workout yesterday. Once again totaling 218 push-ups and 76 pull-ups. One of these days I will write out , in detail, my Monday workout. I know it sounds like a lot, but I think you would all be surprised how many push-ups and pull-ups you can do!
Todays workout is Plyometrics (an hour of jumping) and Tang Soo Do class tonight.
Warm weather is finally here, but the wind will not stop. I am dying for a nice day to just lay outside and get a good tan started!
Tomorrow is Angels second round of testing for her speech therapy class next year. She will be meeting with the lady who , I believe, will be her teacher. I'm not sure what, or how, they will test her this time... Most likely it will be more of a one on one with her teacher to give her an idea of what Angel needs. I am still holding my breath praying that they don't diagnose her with ADD or any other disability that will plague her the rest of her life. .... Just let it be a a quick fix please!
Time to get moving... have a great day bloggers!