Saturday, July 21, 2007
I am always thankful for the way that I ended up. If you had known me 5 or 6 years ago, you would have known an alcoholic, chain smoker who was at the bar every night. I had no dream of becoming a mom... or even a wife. I was just living to party. I met my husband at a bar... I became pregnant before we were 'officially' a couple. I met his family for the first time when I was 6 months pregnant (that was awkward). We fell in love...got married (our daughter being the flower girl).. and a year later had our second daughter. 3 months after having my daughter I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer.. they removed a huge tumor and did a full hysterectomy. I look back and realize that had that not all happened the way it did, I would never have had kids. I probably and most likely would still be a drinker and partier... and life would not be so good. Divine intervention??? You bet your rear end it was! I was saved by Jesus Christ in 2002... about the time this was all going on.
The point to all of that is.. I am thankful.
I got a call from SIL who had a miscarriage on Wednesday at 9 wks pregnant.. the second one this year. They have been trying so hard, and they have had so much heartache. I talked to her last night and told her I would be praying for her... she said she was tired of hearing 'it was Gods will' and 'it was meant to be'... and I don't really blame her. SO I didn't say those things.. I just said 'I'll be praying'.. . I really do believe all those things... God has a plan, and whether you know it or not.. what you suffer through is all part of it. In the end, you will get triple what you ever wanted for yourself!
Now my question is... am I meant to be fat? HA ... NO... I am suffering what is better known as gluttony. Especially on days when I eat more then I need.. like that second package of poptarts..yes, I indulged yesterday. So what do I do? Well, I pray... and I run... and I pray.. and I run.. and when I stop running, I pray ALOT! LOL I will lose this weight... I have faith (In Him.. and in me!!)
Today we are staying home... playing with hubbys new puppy 'Newt'.. and being thankful. (thankful that I made it thru another run last night!!)
Posted by Tigerlilly at 7:17 AM