Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Awwww shucks.. you people are too sweet. Thanks for all the compliments... they were accepted with blushing cheeks! Now I don't want you to think that I constantly put myself down... oh no... I know I am a good lookin' woman! Hehehe.. but come on people, everyone has something that irks them about their weight, right? I just HATE pictures of me! LOL I have this weird picture of myself in my head...(apparently a skinny picture) but when I see a picture of myself, then that picture is shattered. What runs thru my head... "Am I really that fat?" "I looked so skinny in that dress at home... " Am I deceiving myself every time I look in the mirror? Am I crazy? LOL
I don't know, maybe I just don't want to accept the fact that I have let myself get so big. My fear?.. that I will never lose this weight. That this blog, as much as I love it, will last for years and years... only to end at the same weight as it began. Kind of like that nightmare where your falling and never hit bottom.. well, I'm falling but the ground isn't getting any closer.
So on that high note...I am having a hard time getting back on track with eating. It doesn't help that I have left over cheesecake, cookies and chips that I got for hubby and kids to snack on at the wedding... the cheesecake has been tossed as of this morning, but not after a couple of bites. The cookies and chips are still in the cabinet...those I can stay away from fairly easy. I HAVE to workout today... at least get in my run. If I can get at least one good day behind me again, I will be fine.