Does anyone else in this hell hole called 'dieting' suffer from self-sabotage? I swear, every time I get close to getting under the 200 mark.... and yes, there have been MANY times that I have reached this point....I end up eating, and eating and losing my focus, and I end up at the weight I started at. Well, for the past two days I have caught myself in that automatic self sabotage mode. NO MORE!! I am not going to end up at the beginning again... not again! I am going to drink my water, eat healthy low fat food.. and NOT eat in between meals! I am going to do my run this morning and my weight lifting after. I am going to push past this point. I am not going to be scared to weigh 199.9 lbs. I am not going to be a failure...

UGH... ok, I feel better now.

Its Wednesday.. which means three things. One, I still have 5 days to lose weight before my regular weigh in. Two, I HAVE to run this morning. Three, I have my first band practice tonight with the Rhythm Asylum playing congas.

Still waiting to see if we have the house... Aaaaaaaaaack. I have come to terms that if we do not get this house then we will just move into an apartment here until this house sells.

I have joined a couple of challenges. The first one is over at FatBlokeThin...see the button on your RH side. I have already won the first week there with a 3.3% weight loss... I don't think that will happen again this week, but damn it, I'm trying. The second one is over at The ELFF Diet. (Eat Less Fatty Food) My partner is Anne-Marie. We have to check in with each other and make sure that we are doing our exorcises and keeping to our diet. Every Sunday we weigh-in/check-in with each other and Carmen. This Sunday will be our first week... and I want it to be a positive thing. So I need to get off my arse and go run.

Have a wonderful hump day... see you tomorrow!