There is a program in our town that helps children 2-5 years old with their speech problems. It is one of the rare programs that is free. The kids have to test into the program. My 4 year old is very hard to understand. She still does not form full sentences and the words she does say... well, usually only mommy and her all-knowing dictionary of 'Angel Words' can understand. So, we signed her up to take the test and see if she was eligible for the program.
At 9am this morning angel was taken into 5 different rooms in the building. Each room tested a different area. ie: adaptive, cognitive, motor, vision, hearing, personal/social and communication. Sister and I got to go along and watch (from a distance so as not to interfere...or sneak her the answers!). Her motor skills were fine... as I already knew from the constant ballet she dances in the kitchen! When it came to answering questions... well it went something like this:
Teacher: "Who made you breakfast this morning?"
Angel: mumbled something about Woodroe, our dog, and Snoopy.
Teacher: "What is your last name?"
I knew that she had a problem.. but I didn't realize it until it was right in front of me. Needless to say.. she failed the tests with flying colors. Which, in a weird and twisted way, is good because that means that she qualified for the program. They are going to send me a letter to let me know when the next testing is (what else could they be testing for??) and when the first class is. (sometime in August)
Is it normal to feel like a complete failure as a mother?? Baby Sister is nothing like Angel. She is going to be 3 next month and speaks in full sentences and already draws faces and dogs... (angel doesn't draw anything but lines right now)... so did I drop the ball with my first daughter and then bounce back in time for my second daughter?
She did pass the colors test... and I was super proud of her for that. We've been working on that for a while now. I know that this is going to be really good for her.. and I hope that it works wonders. I just wish she didn't need it in the first place.