WARNING: VENTING AHEAD
I had a breakdown last night. I have been trying to be a part of Hubbys family since day 1... and for 5 years I have been shot down, rejected, given the cold shoulder. It absolutely amazes me that a family with 2 daughter, 6 sons, 5 daughter in laws and 8 grand kids... they DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE A FAMILY. I am the youngest of four kids. My brother and sisters were pretty much grown and out of the house when I came along, so you could say I was an only child. I know what a family should be like. You love them no matter what. My MIL has not seen our girls since Christmas, yet she drives by our house (literally....our house is 3 blocks off the main highway) to go visit Hubbys younger brother and his kids every other weekend. She has been to ONE of their birthdays..(I think it was Angels first b-day 4 years ago)... Yesterday Hubbys two sisters, one sister in law and her kids, my MIL and my father in laws NEW FRICKIN WIFE all got together yesterday to make some of the food for the dinner and dance tomorrow night. Did they call me? Nope.... and they call is a family event! Pffft
I AM DONE!!!!!
I am not going to try to be a part of this family any more. 5 years is enough. No more being nice to people who do nothing but hurt my family. If they want to see a cold shoulder, then I will give it to them. I love my family and my Hubby. Thankfully my family knows how to love and include my Hubby in everything.... AAAAAAAAAAARrrrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhh..... I am so frustrated.
Why? You ask. There are a couple of reasons. First, hubby has always been the black sheep of the family. He was always in trouble and was a severe alcoholic in his 20's. He has been sober for 4 years now and has not even been pulled over for speeding. He has turned his life around and I am proud of him. As for me... my MIL loved Hubby's first wife... I don't make the cut. The rest of the family are just hateful conniving b*&^%$.
I am trying not to be like them.... but I really cant turn another cheek.
Ok, venting is over....
Yesterdays workout was a good one. I did my Plyometrics and it was a kick butt hour of jumping. Then I did my shoulder and arms weights... I was really worn out when I started, so it made for a hellacious hour. When I was done I felt good. I was drenched is sweat and proud that I got through both workouts.
water and food