I have been eating... a lot. I think it is due to being stressed. Hubby is out of town again. I thought I would do better with my eating, but am finding myself in the kitchen every hour looking through the cupboards (thank God there is nothing bad in there to eat). I have not exercised because I do not have the energy... the girls are constantly fighting with each other and they are tired of listening to me... so they don't. My youngest wont let go of me (really! she is constantly grabbing on to my pants) and when I do try to workout she cries. I am going crazy because I am so thrown off my routine that I could cry.
I am supposed to take my Green belt test in Tang Soo Do on Thursday night, but I have not had a chance to go over any of my forms.... I really just want to slam a chocolate cake in my face... speaking of cake. My birthday is on Friday. 30 years old. Its not the age that I am depressed about. Its the fact that I am no where near the weight I promised myself to be by now. My weight?? I have been bouncing between 195 and 197 for months now. MONTHS.
I just want to cry.