Friday, February 02, 2007
When I was 6 or 7 years old, my family went to visit my oldest sister in Louisiana. She took us to see her horse who was grazing in a pasture nearby. She hopped on him bareback and my dad lifted me up and plopped me behind her. She took off at a racing speed, at least that is what it felt like at 6 yrs old, but in truth it was probably walking a little bit faster then normal! I remember yelling at her to "STOP!!!" , but she didn't. I kept sliding off the ass end of the horse. Trying to grip anything I could with my little hands. In honesty, I dont remember if I ever did fall off the horse, or if my sister finally stopped and let me down. I just remember that for the next 10 years, I hated her!! LOL. Of course that wasnt the only reason... she was the oldest of 3 girls (17 yrs older then me) and I was the youngest. Daddy always bragged about how well she was doing. He was so proud when she became a Russian translator in the Army... she was intelligent, beautiful and Daddy's absolute favorite. For the past 6 years, I have come to see what my dad did in my sister. I call her for no reason sometimes, just to laugh. Yesterday was one of those days. We talked about everything and nothing.. .and I loved it. She and I are alot like our dad.. which makes talking to each other a little comforting I think.
Its been 6 years now that my Dad past away... and whoever can say that missing them gets easier as time goes by should be shot! I miss him more as the years fly by. My husband asked me after the wedding last weekend, if I wanted to have a 'real' wedding like that one. He and I were married in the little courthouse here in town, dressed in Wranglers and boots...(my sister was there!)
I love my husband, and a wedding like that is a dream, but I told him... " I couldn't walk down the isle without my daddy" ... and that is the truth. I dont feel sorry for myself... I loved our little wedding.. and I would do nothing to change it. So my husband said "How about we have something 'kinda' like a wedding for our 5 yr anniversary" ... LOL.. how can you say no to a man who just wants you to have a day where your the princess! I said I would love to... but we're going to have to do something besides have me walk down the isle... maybe we could do a conga line!! LOL just kidding. Whatever we do end up doing... you can bet I will want my sister right next to me!!
So... today is a day of cleaning this house top to bottom...so that I can just relax all weekend with hubby! I have two workouts planned.. and am going to drink 14 glasses of water.. thats right, 112 oz... which is what I should be drinking for my wieght and hieght! Huh.. .who knew? So, I better get off memory lane and get my butt moving!!
Have a Blessed Day!