So I feel bad that I didnt post yesterday! LOL... It has become such a ritual for me to get on the computer every morning and write my days little adventures that when I miss a day, I feel like I let myself down! Ha! To be honest with you NOTHING happend the day before except some major binging and sitting on my a@@ all day. My depression kicked in a couple of days ago.... there are a number of reasons that could have jump started it.... but mostly I think its because I missed a couple of days here and there on my medication and it just finally caught up to me. Yesterday I started feeling a little bit better, although my eating was horrific. This morning I am feeling back to my self again and am craving a good workout and lots of water... so that is good! It is amazing how depression can bring you down so fast. Sometimes it takes me a couple of days to recognize the signs... no energy, eating LOTS, snappy, angry, wanting to go to bed all the time.... but when I do, I am able to get the medication in me and then try to do some positive thinking... usually that helps me until the meds kick in again. For anyone who is feeling any of these signs, please dont think that its just the way you are... get some help... this may even be the cause of your eating habits! I have been on antidepressants for 5 years now and can tell you that the difference is night and day!
Ok... so onward...
I found my devotional book hidden between the mattresses in Munchkin Land (my daughters bedroom)... how can you get mad at your daughter for wanting to look at a christian book? LOL... So, todays devotional seems perfect since today is also the first day of the February Challenge.
I press on toward the goal for the prize of the heavenly call of God in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 3:14
Sometimes the goals I set for myself are absurdly high. But on the other hand, if I'm aiming for too easy a mark, I dont feel satisfied. Goals can be addictive: elusive, always promising happiness or riches or success.
The trick is making sure they're really my own objectives. When TV presents me with an actess who weighs ninety-two pounds, and whose wavy red hair falls to her waist, I dont have to try to be that person. When two of my friends go on crash diets to lose thirty pounds in three weeks, I can wish them well - but set my own target.
I neet to listen for the goals God has in mind for me alone. Goals that will challenge me to be strong and brave and full of good humor. Perhaps what I most need to accomplish is making a rich strawberry trifle, piled high with whipped cream, for my guests - and not eating any of it myself. Your challenge may be quite different.
For Further Reflection
1. Are your goals too easy or too hard?
2. What sensible hard mark can you aim for today?
3. Do you beat yourself up when you miss the mark?
Help me strive , God, toward the goals You set for me. Amen
So my goal for February is still to match my weight loss this month and hit 195. My 'sensible mark' that I am aiming for today is to not eat any of the junk food that I bought the other day... chips, cookies, ice cream...(hmmmmm think it was self sabotage yet again??). I was hoping today would be a nice day, but once again it is snowing/raining and is very cold... so another day of staying home... the girls and I are getting a little bit of cabin fever! Does anyone have any suggestions on fun things to do indoors with a 1 yr old and a 3 yr old??? I think they are tired of everything I can think of... painting, play dough, movies, making a tent with the couch pillows, dress up, bubbles.... and to be honest.. I'm kinda tired of them too!!
Well, I guess I can no longer put off starting the day!! I am hoping to get in a couple of good workouts today... nothing like starting the month off right!!
Have A Blessed Day